I can do everything except drive, I can even paint my nails, and do crazy and fun designs, if you would like to see them, I can put a picture of them here. I have been to college, I even graduated my undergrad, and now am doing a graduate program to get my teaching certification. I have a boyfriend, who I love dearly, who drives me everywhere (when I ask/tell him) I can draw amazing things on my ipad, using an amazing app called "SprayCan" if you would like to see what i draw, and what my username is, I will gladly put it in here, if requested.
I honestly am bored, if you want to know anything, anything at all.... comment and I will answer you,
i have been wanting to start a youtube channel for a while now, so what do you think? should I or shouldn't I? help me decide in the comments...
I know this is extremely short, but i honestly want to to see what you guys are wondering
till next time...
Thursday, May 28, 2015
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Growing up with a Label
When I was a kid,
(really young) my parents were referred to early intervention, this is where I had gotten my "Light box", this was a tool that was a rectangle, and I had lights in it, and it also had shapes and transparent sheets, with colored animals on them. The "Light box" had a bag of colored shaped that could be built up and knocked down.
S lady had come to my house, and had given me things to test my hand-eye coordination, this lady had given me shaving cream to play with, and things of this nature. it was all to see where my vision was at, at a very young age, and to get me up to spead with other kids my age.
my hand-eye coordination is not the best, so I never was able to play games with flying balls.... yes, laugh you want, but it is true. This became real when i was in 4th grade, and we had what was called "field day" where each grade played against each other, it was a fun day with not class... haha. Anyway, there was Tee-ball, and I felt like I could not do it, so I spoke up and told my teacher I could not do it, and so she was trying to understand things, and trying to get me to do something I did not feel comfortable with doing by trying to help me by saying "well, what if I did this...?" I was not a fan of whatever she had come up with, and so I stat out. That was the beginning of me starting to speak up for myself, even though I knew it did not stick till middle school.
In elementary school, I had a lot of friends, and they actually wanted to be around me. I had my first ever bully in 4th grade, she was mean, she had made me not want to present on something that I really wanted to present about in front of the class. She had me cry in front of my teacher. I remember, I had actually went up to my teacher, with tears in my eyes, and told her that someone was not being very nice to me, and that I did not want to present, and she let me not present. I had come home that day, and my mom had asked what I did in school, and I had told her that I was being made fun of. She just sat there and listened, while I was telling her what had happened. she hugged me, and was supportive.
(really young) my parents were referred to early intervention, this is where I had gotten my "Light box", this was a tool that was a rectangle, and I had lights in it, and it also had shapes and transparent sheets, with colored animals on them. The "Light box" had a bag of colored shaped that could be built up and knocked down.
S lady had come to my house, and had given me things to test my hand-eye coordination, this lady had given me shaving cream to play with, and things of this nature. it was all to see where my vision was at, at a very young age, and to get me up to spead with other kids my age.
my hand-eye coordination is not the best, so I never was able to play games with flying balls.... yes, laugh you want, but it is true. This became real when i was in 4th grade, and we had what was called "field day" where each grade played against each other, it was a fun day with not class... haha. Anyway, there was Tee-ball, and I felt like I could not do it, so I spoke up and told my teacher I could not do it, and so she was trying to understand things, and trying to get me to do something I did not feel comfortable with doing by trying to help me by saying "well, what if I did this...?" I was not a fan of whatever she had come up with, and so I stat out. That was the beginning of me starting to speak up for myself, even though I knew it did not stick till middle school.
In elementary school, I had a lot of friends, and they actually wanted to be around me. I had my first ever bully in 4th grade, she was mean, she had made me not want to present on something that I really wanted to present about in front of the class. She had me cry in front of my teacher. I remember, I had actually went up to my teacher, with tears in my eyes, and told her that someone was not being very nice to me, and that I did not want to present, and she let me not present. I had come home that day, and my mom had asked what I did in school, and I had told her that I was being made fun of. She just sat there and listened, while I was telling her what had happened. she hugged me, and was supportive.
as a little girl, I actually had a lot of friends, and than when I reached middle school I found myself sitting by myself at lunch, eating alone, and not having many people to talk to, so I started to rely on myself for doing things, I had to have a lot of courage, I had gone to dances by myself and stuff like that because the people I used to hang around with, thought they were "too cool" for me, so I started doing things for myself, to keep me happy and my mind off of my vision problems, that helped me in the long run, I had gone to lectures by myself I'm my freshman year of college by myself, and found nothing wrong with it, it's when I started to make friends and doing things with them, and if they didn't want to do something, and I had gone to it by myself is where I felt weird about going by myself. moral? do things for yourself, not anyone else :)
grades
I actually got alright grades,
like no A's but B's and C's and at time, I thought that was alright, now that I look back? I could have done a lot better, and tried harder, but middle school was hard for me, because I was going into surgery every so often, so the teachers had sent home work for me to do, and stuff, in 7th grade, I did not take the PSSA, because I was getting surgery, and I was going to be recovering from surgery when the test was given, and for gym, I was in the library, which counted for my gym time, this is where I had met my one friend, and we just hung out in the library.
I had a great childhood though, I can Not complain, I had fun, tons of friends, although when I was a lot younger, we lived in a community. with no kids my age my parents wanted to only stay there temporarily, to find a house that they actually wanted. after I think 6 years, they had found a place with kids near my age, and sidewalks, and bigger houses. it was a good move, I had made neighborhood friends, and I felt like I had good friends that I could count on.
in college, on of those "friends" had met my current boyfriend (over almost 3 years ago) with me in town, and because of that, I now have some stories to tell about what happened when we had met for the first time. this had happened in summer of my freshman year, into my sophomore year. needless to say, her and I are no longer friends, she went all crazy on me saying that I was "obsessed" with my current boyfriend. that was all because I had told her I had helped my mom with work at her school to help her get ready for the next year, and than after that, my boyfriend came over to have dinner with my parents, and meet them for the first time. she had thought I was "blowing her off to hang out with him". I just thought him meeting my parents was more important than hanging out with her.
I have many more stories about that, and I will write about them later, in later posts :)
till next time
Thursday, May 21, 2015
Fun Facts
Hi guys =)
want to know some fun facts about me?
well, lets go
1. I have one tattoo (I plan more, but not going to get anymore anytime soon)
2. I have 13 piercings
3. I have a YouTube channel that I have been too nervous to start
4. I have been to europe 3 times (14 different countries)
5. I have the cutest chihuahua ever (Her name is Tiki)
6. I have a lot of sas... and a lot of sassy moments lol (mainly with friends)
7. I have a promise ring that my boyfriend had given me (If you want to know the meaning comment blelow)
8. I have always wanted to go on Ellen
9. I think British YouTubers are cooler than American YouTubers (Except Tyler Oakley, I love him)
10. I am lactose intolerant
11. I am getting more and more into makeup as the days pass by =)
12. I love Turtles (this should have been #1, lol oh well)
13. ..... Unlucky number.... run away...... XDD
14. I am taken grad classes to get my teaching certification
15. I like tea
16. If you had not noticed, I am very funny (LOL, not really, but I try)
17. I hate dolls and spiders (like scared of them is more like it)
Anything else you want to know?
ask in the comments
till next time
want to know some fun facts about me?
well, lets go
1. I have one tattoo (I plan more, but not going to get anymore anytime soon)
2. I have 13 piercings
3. I have a YouTube channel that I have been too nervous to start
4. I have been to europe 3 times (14 different countries)
5. I have the cutest chihuahua ever (Her name is Tiki)
6. I have a lot of sas... and a lot of sassy moments lol (mainly with friends)
7. I have a promise ring that my boyfriend had given me (If you want to know the meaning comment blelow)
8. I have always wanted to go on Ellen
9. I think British YouTubers are cooler than American YouTubers (Except Tyler Oakley, I love him)
10. I am lactose intolerant
11. I am getting more and more into makeup as the days pass by =)
12. I love Turtles (this should have been #1, lol oh well)
13. ..... Unlucky number.... run away...... XDD
14. I am taken grad classes to get my teaching certification
15. I like tea
16. If you had not noticed, I am very funny (LOL, not really, but I try)
17. I hate dolls and spiders (like scared of them is more like it)
Anything else you want to know?
ask in the comments
till next time
Wednesday, May 20, 2015
Anxiety, How I Control/Handle it
I am no expert, nor did I study this in college, so do not quote me or anything, I am just sharing what helps for me.
What helps me, is to just to meditate.
what I do, is I lay down or sit down, whenever I have a few hour or so, I lay down or sit down, turn on a meditation app, or I go on YouTube for a guided meditation. I listen to it, and i actually just focus on my breathing. Breathinis key in any situation (Outside of meditation). anyway, this has helped me for years to control my anxiety, and my anxiety attacks, the thing is though, I know when it is time to mediate, because I will have just come out of an attack, or just calm enough to let everything go, sometimes I cannot let things go by myself. My boyfriend will literally tell me to go meditate, and I will say to him that I am not willing to at the time he suggests it. If someone is not willing to go into a meditative state, the relaxation will not work, or it will take a while for it to work, I have tried when I was not willing to let things yet. This is when I am in my room, by myself and I have the time to do this. When I am out and about, I do not just listen to a guided medatition, or anything of what I had said above. I either step outside for a bit, walking away from a situation for a little to regather thoughts, than to revisit the situation at a later time with a clear head is a good way to control stress. In my mind. Or I just sit there, and focus on my breathing.
Do I Have Triggers?
Yes, I do, some are situational based, and some are just memories that trigger things.
Situational based?
there is a good story to this one. when I was with my ex, him and I were walking in a mall, and I had something that I thought was funny, and obviously he did not. so he walked really fast in front of me, leaving me by myself in a big mall. I started calling his cell phone, and no answer when I knew he had it on him. I had called my mom, just in case he really did leave me there on my own, if she would come and pick me up. I had eventually found him, to which he was laughing I.had been sitting down outside the store he had went into. He had come out, to see me sitting there, and he reprimanded me like I was a little girl, I was 18 years old at this point. After this, we had walked to his car, and had gotten in, I was extremely upset, and had gone into a panic attack, saying "Never again" I could not speak more than that. I had never felt anything like this before though, I felt like I was going to die. Obviously, he did not understand anything about what was happening, nor why I couldn't speak much more than what I had been. so he started yelling at me to speak to him, and to stop doing what I was doing. I eventually came out of it, and we were going to jersey to met his one friend, and he did not want his friend to see or hear anything about what had happened.
Other ways I am triggered?
Memories, like say if something happens that is similar to what happened in the past, and I had a bad experience with that situation. I could go into an anxiety attack.
Does this mean I cannot have a day where I don't have attacks?
these attack are rare. I don't have them often and I credit that to my meditation.
any other questions, ask them below in a comment
till next time
What helps me, is to just to meditate.
what I do, is I lay down or sit down, whenever I have a few hour or so, I lay down or sit down, turn on a meditation app, or I go on YouTube for a guided meditation. I listen to it, and i actually just focus on my breathing. Breathinis key in any situation (Outside of meditation). anyway, this has helped me for years to control my anxiety, and my anxiety attacks, the thing is though, I know when it is time to mediate, because I will have just come out of an attack, or just calm enough to let everything go, sometimes I cannot let things go by myself. My boyfriend will literally tell me to go meditate, and I will say to him that I am not willing to at the time he suggests it. If someone is not willing to go into a meditative state, the relaxation will not work, or it will take a while for it to work, I have tried when I was not willing to let things yet. This is when I am in my room, by myself and I have the time to do this. When I am out and about, I do not just listen to a guided medatition, or anything of what I had said above. I either step outside for a bit, walking away from a situation for a little to regather thoughts, than to revisit the situation at a later time with a clear head is a good way to control stress. In my mind. Or I just sit there, and focus on my breathing.
Do I Have Triggers?
Yes, I do, some are situational based, and some are just memories that trigger things.
Situational based?
there is a good story to this one. when I was with my ex, him and I were walking in a mall, and I had something that I thought was funny, and obviously he did not. so he walked really fast in front of me, leaving me by myself in a big mall. I started calling his cell phone, and no answer when I knew he had it on him. I had called my mom, just in case he really did leave me there on my own, if she would come and pick me up. I had eventually found him, to which he was laughing I.had been sitting down outside the store he had went into. He had come out, to see me sitting there, and he reprimanded me like I was a little girl, I was 18 years old at this point. After this, we had walked to his car, and had gotten in, I was extremely upset, and had gone into a panic attack, saying "Never again" I could not speak more than that. I had never felt anything like this before though, I felt like I was going to die. Obviously, he did not understand anything about what was happening, nor why I couldn't speak much more than what I had been. so he started yelling at me to speak to him, and to stop doing what I was doing. I eventually came out of it, and we were going to jersey to met his one friend, and he did not want his friend to see or hear anything about what had happened.
Other ways I am triggered?
Memories, like say if something happens that is similar to what happened in the past, and I had a bad experience with that situation. I could go into an anxiety attack.
Does this mean I cannot have a day where I don't have attacks?
these attack are rare. I don't have them often and I credit that to my meditation.
any other questions, ask them below in a comment
till next time
Monday, May 18, 2015
Makeup
Makeup
I do wear makeup now that I am older and know how to apply it properly. When I was younger, I was terrified of mascara, and eye shadow. Oh and eye liner. Now that I know how to wear it, and how not to make it look too bad. Sometimes when I apply makeup though, I actually have to take it all off and start over. I am a perfectionist.
I tend to play more with looks, and eye shadows, and things like that. Mascara I tend to go for the ones with the bigger brushes. For eye liner I tend to go for the ones that i have more control over, like the brushes. for foundation, I wear a powder foundation, than on top I wear a liquid concealer. I tend to just wear mascara. I have just been brave enough to wear eye liner, and to wear eye shadow... I have actually not too long ago, I had invested into a "high end" eye shadow pallet, which i love... that pallet is the Urban Decay NAKED pallet. I love this pallet, the color is great, and its all "Neutral" colors.
I do wear blush, but it depends on where I wear it to. If it's for shows and the stage, I go heavier with everything, if it's for everyday wear, I go a lot lighter with the blush, and the mascara mainly.
I have actually just been more interested in makeup. I had gotten my "Big girl" eye shadow and foundation, (Foundation is also "high end", everything else is drugstore)
I am sorry that this post is so short, but I really just wanted to say that I do wear makeup, and that I was originally scared of the stuff that goes around the eyes because I was afraid of stabbing my eye with the wand, or the brushes, or something silly like that.
If you would like to know more, (what I use and such...) comment below
Till next time
I do wear makeup now that I am older and know how to apply it properly. When I was younger, I was terrified of mascara, and eye shadow. Oh and eye liner. Now that I know how to wear it, and how not to make it look too bad. Sometimes when I apply makeup though, I actually have to take it all off and start over. I am a perfectionist.
I tend to play more with looks, and eye shadows, and things like that. Mascara I tend to go for the ones with the bigger brushes. For eye liner I tend to go for the ones that i have more control over, like the brushes. for foundation, I wear a powder foundation, than on top I wear a liquid concealer. I tend to just wear mascara. I have just been brave enough to wear eye liner, and to wear eye shadow... I have actually not too long ago, I had invested into a "high end" eye shadow pallet, which i love... that pallet is the Urban Decay NAKED pallet. I love this pallet, the color is great, and its all "Neutral" colors.
I do wear blush, but it depends on where I wear it to. If it's for shows and the stage, I go heavier with everything, if it's for everyday wear, I go a lot lighter with the blush, and the mascara mainly.
I have actually just been more interested in makeup. I had gotten my "Big girl" eye shadow and foundation, (Foundation is also "high end", everything else is drugstore)
I am sorry that this post is so short, but I really just wanted to say that I do wear makeup, and that I was originally scared of the stuff that goes around the eyes because I was afraid of stabbing my eye with the wand, or the brushes, or something silly like that.
If you would like to know more, (what I use and such...) comment below
Till next time
Technology
With anyone with that has any type of visual impairment, they always use tools. (Glasses are a type of "Tool") I use a lot of them in my daily life.
As a Little Girl
I used to not want to be different, and because of that I did not want to use my tools to make seeing and reading easier for me. I had these huge large print books in my classrooms, which did not help at all, but that's because I did not know my vision well enough. a kid with Peter's has to know their vision well enough to start telling people what they can see and what cannot, and to tell if they are having a good vision day, or not. Also, teachers tended to jump the gun with getting me those large printed books, simply because they thought they would help. Just because I am visually impaired, does not mean that things that you think would help, actually helps. sometimes it is trial and error. If something does not work, do not get stressed just keep trying different things till it works out. Also, I had learned braille, just in case if something happened to my vision in the future. In high school, I had re-learned it, with the same reasons. I still remember the Grade 1 stuff, the contractions are very hard to remember. If you understand anything about braille, it is very much like learning another language and is said if you don't use, you lose it. I still remember it.
Technology in the Classroom
My classes never had a CCTV in the classroom. I have a CCTV for reading smaller print. another thing about me... I actually like reading actual books, like that concrete versions. I do not like reading things online. what I will do is actually print things off in a larger print, so I can read it. I feel like i will get more out of the concrete version of books instead of the ones online. that is just me though. I had started using hand held devices in the classroom in about 6th grade. I had started out with something simple, like a monocular. Picture binoculars, with only one arm. that is a monocular. I still use one today, it is literally my best friend, I use it all the time in class. One thing that people tend to think when they hear "visually impaired" is "Magnification" and people also tend to think a simple magnifier will solve all the worlds problems. In most cases, it does not, I am far sited, so a simple magnifier does not help, I actually need something stronger than that. So I had just requested to get a "Ruby" which is a hand held device that is very similar to a CCTV, but it is small enough to hold and scan over pages and stuff. this is a fairly new product.
Where do I use these things?
I bring them out anywhere I need to. Honestly, I take out my monocular at parks, movies, and shows. I take out my glasses when I am out at a restaurant, or menus are involved, or anything that is written in small print. It had taken a while to get here though, A LOT of courage and not being able to truly care about what others will say after I leave the area. I break more social norms for bringing out these things to read better. If it works, than I tend to use it, if it doesn't work for me, or if it is too bulky I will never use it.
Any questions, ask them below in a comment
Till next time
As a Little Girl
I used to not want to be different, and because of that I did not want to use my tools to make seeing and reading easier for me. I had these huge large print books in my classrooms, which did not help at all, but that's because I did not know my vision well enough. a kid with Peter's has to know their vision well enough to start telling people what they can see and what cannot, and to tell if they are having a good vision day, or not. Also, teachers tended to jump the gun with getting me those large printed books, simply because they thought they would help. Just because I am visually impaired, does not mean that things that you think would help, actually helps. sometimes it is trial and error. If something does not work, do not get stressed just keep trying different things till it works out. Also, I had learned braille, just in case if something happened to my vision in the future. In high school, I had re-learned it, with the same reasons. I still remember the Grade 1 stuff, the contractions are very hard to remember. If you understand anything about braille, it is very much like learning another language and is said if you don't use, you lose it. I still remember it.
Technology in the Classroom
My classes never had a CCTV in the classroom. I have a CCTV for reading smaller print. another thing about me... I actually like reading actual books, like that concrete versions. I do not like reading things online. what I will do is actually print things off in a larger print, so I can read it. I feel like i will get more out of the concrete version of books instead of the ones online. that is just me though. I had started using hand held devices in the classroom in about 6th grade. I had started out with something simple, like a monocular. Picture binoculars, with only one arm. that is a monocular. I still use one today, it is literally my best friend, I use it all the time in class. One thing that people tend to think when they hear "visually impaired" is "Magnification" and people also tend to think a simple magnifier will solve all the worlds problems. In most cases, it does not, I am far sited, so a simple magnifier does not help, I actually need something stronger than that. So I had just requested to get a "Ruby" which is a hand held device that is very similar to a CCTV, but it is small enough to hold and scan over pages and stuff. this is a fairly new product.
Where do I use these things?
I bring them out anywhere I need to. Honestly, I take out my monocular at parks, movies, and shows. I take out my glasses when I am out at a restaurant, or menus are involved, or anything that is written in small print. It had taken a while to get here though, A LOT of courage and not being able to truly care about what others will say after I leave the area. I break more social norms for bringing out these things to read better. If it works, than I tend to use it, if it doesn't work for me, or if it is too bulky I will never use it.
Any questions, ask them below in a comment
Till next time
Being Bullied
To answer the question, yes, I was bullied, more online than anything. I had bullies in my high school too, and my ex had bullied me.
Younger Years
I was never out right bullied in school, the one thing that really stands out to me when i was with my friend as chuckie cheese and I had told my friend to get out of a place because i thought it was stupid, and another girl had thought i was calling her stupid, so she had said to me "I am going to beat this blind B**** up" I had ran to my parents and had told them the whole story. I had just turned (, and it was on my birthday that thhis had happened to me.
High School
I had a rolly back pack for my laptop. so I would go up and down the halls with this back pack, and kids would say I purposefully ran over their feet while i was walking. I did not and still do not have eyes in the back of my head. One day, i was threatened to be beaten up because i had purposefully ran over this guy's girls foot.I was so scared i ran to my next class early to tell the teacher what had been said on my way over to my next class.
Another time was when I was in gym, and I could not play the normal sports, so I was in the workout gym, and while I was on the treadmill, a girl was trying to come back into the school, and she was knocking on the door for someone to let her in, and at the time, I couldn't see anyone there. So I did nothing, than someone had let her in, and just as they did, she started to curse me out by saying "I don't care how Fed up your eye is, I'ma mess you up". I had told my teacher and he had talked to her, turns out she was having a bad day.... although everyday was a bad day for her.
Cyber Bullying
I was Cyber bullied a lot actually. I have had a hate group made in my name on Facebook. I have had fake accounts made using my name trying to defame me. My ex was involved with the fake accounts. I know, scum, right? well, I had no idea what he was up to till he left me. He was friends with this one girl, and that girl seemed to be jealous of me for some reason, anyway... He was feeding her lies about me, and that fueled her anger towards me. she had created a fake account of Facebook and a site called MeetMe, on MeetMe, she had made me out to be a scumbag, who only wanted one thing. when I am not like that at all. She had said something on there that provoked one my friends to text me about what she had said, and I was confused as to why my friend would have had said what he had. that had my curiosity
peeked, and it made me do some digging. This girl had more than one account, all telling some sappy story about her being abused and what not. when on the account that she had made to defame me, she had said that my eye was the way it was because i had gotten into a fight with the girl, and ended up in the hospital, with my eye looking like it does now. (Not true).
Verbal Bullying/Abuse
I was bullied by my ex, he would call me ugly and the B word, (No, not "Blind"). and he would tell me he was going somewhere when i would call him, he told me something completely different. One night, he had told me he was out with 13 - 15 year olds to the movies... but it was alright, because he was helping pick up girls for his "Friend" who he had met online. He would just verbally bash me when I was out with my mom to try to ruin my time outside my home. He would call me, start a fight than hang up, and never answer his phone for hours on end.This is not even the half of it....
After affects
I have many mental blocks to where i cannot get past them, I have anxiety and panic attacks if I am triggered. and I used to have dreams to where i had yelled at my ex, then beat him up in the dream, than woke up and felt strange because it was in the beginning of my current relationship. I had grown out of that though, meaning that these dreams do not happen anymore. Bullying should never be a reason to get rid of anger, to make yourself feel better. Bullying should never happen at all. but it happens. If you are a parent of a kid with Peters, tell your son or daughter that everything will be OK soon, and just comfort them. It will get better, (regardless if you have Peter's or not) It will get better within time. I Promise.
Till next time
Younger Years
I was never out right bullied in school, the one thing that really stands out to me when i was with my friend as chuckie cheese and I had told my friend to get out of a place because i thought it was stupid, and another girl had thought i was calling her stupid, so she had said to me "I am going to beat this blind B**** up" I had ran to my parents and had told them the whole story. I had just turned (, and it was on my birthday that thhis had happened to me.
High School
I had a rolly back pack for my laptop. so I would go up and down the halls with this back pack, and kids would say I purposefully ran over their feet while i was walking. I did not and still do not have eyes in the back of my head. One day, i was threatened to be beaten up because i had purposefully ran over this guy's girls foot.I was so scared i ran to my next class early to tell the teacher what had been said on my way over to my next class.
Another time was when I was in gym, and I could not play the normal sports, so I was in the workout gym, and while I was on the treadmill, a girl was trying to come back into the school, and she was knocking on the door for someone to let her in, and at the time, I couldn't see anyone there. So I did nothing, than someone had let her in, and just as they did, she started to curse me out by saying "I don't care how Fed up your eye is, I'ma mess you up". I had told my teacher and he had talked to her, turns out she was having a bad day.... although everyday was a bad day for her.
Cyber Bullying
I was Cyber bullied a lot actually. I have had a hate group made in my name on Facebook. I have had fake accounts made using my name trying to defame me. My ex was involved with the fake accounts. I know, scum, right? well, I had no idea what he was up to till he left me. He was friends with this one girl, and that girl seemed to be jealous of me for some reason, anyway... He was feeding her lies about me, and that fueled her anger towards me. she had created a fake account of Facebook and a site called MeetMe, on MeetMe, she had made me out to be a scumbag, who only wanted one thing. when I am not like that at all. She had said something on there that provoked one my friends to text me about what she had said, and I was confused as to why my friend would have had said what he had. that had my curiosity
peeked, and it made me do some digging. This girl had more than one account, all telling some sappy story about her being abused and what not. when on the account that she had made to defame me, she had said that my eye was the way it was because i had gotten into a fight with the girl, and ended up in the hospital, with my eye looking like it does now. (Not true).
Verbal Bullying/Abuse
I was bullied by my ex, he would call me ugly and the B word, (No, not "Blind"). and he would tell me he was going somewhere when i would call him, he told me something completely different. One night, he had told me he was out with 13 - 15 year olds to the movies... but it was alright, because he was helping pick up girls for his "Friend" who he had met online. He would just verbally bash me when I was out with my mom to try to ruin my time outside my home. He would call me, start a fight than hang up, and never answer his phone for hours on end.This is not even the half of it....
After affects
I have many mental blocks to where i cannot get past them, I have anxiety and panic attacks if I am triggered. and I used to have dreams to where i had yelled at my ex, then beat him up in the dream, than woke up and felt strange because it was in the beginning of my current relationship. I had grown out of that though, meaning that these dreams do not happen anymore. Bullying should never be a reason to get rid of anger, to make yourself feel better. Bullying should never happen at all. but it happens. If you are a parent of a kid with Peters, tell your son or daughter that everything will be OK soon, and just comfort them. It will get better, (regardless if you have Peter's or not) It will get better within time. I Promise.
Till next time
Saturday, May 16, 2015
GRADUATING SOON (Class of 2015)
Graduation day,
I won't have time to write tomorrow, simply because I will be super busy with the big event tomorrow. So I figured I would write now. I have to thank everyone that has helped me keep my cool from freshman year till this day. You guys rock. my parents are amazing, my boyfriend is amazing.... both has helped me so much over the years. and i commend both my parents and my boyfriend for dealing with my crap over the years. the time i was so afraid of getting kicked off campus, my parents had my back the whole way. From then till now, I have come a LONG way and I am super appreciative to everyone who was there for me through the tough times and the happy times. I cannot believe I am graduating!!! the last 4 years has pasted by so fast... i was warned about this before hand though. it doesn't help that the person who had told me that was right... I had wanted to do so many things with my college life, but I had never been able to. It is fine though, I have my whole life to make kids lives better with just being their teacher, which is better than anything ever.
this the time class of 2015 to enter into the world, and good luck to everyone in the future.
WE DID IT =D
till next time
I won't have time to write tomorrow, simply because I will be super busy with the big event tomorrow. So I figured I would write now. I have to thank everyone that has helped me keep my cool from freshman year till this day. You guys rock. my parents are amazing, my boyfriend is amazing.... both has helped me so much over the years. and i commend both my parents and my boyfriend for dealing with my crap over the years. the time i was so afraid of getting kicked off campus, my parents had my back the whole way. From then till now, I have come a LONG way and I am super appreciative to everyone who was there for me through the tough times and the happy times. I cannot believe I am graduating!!! the last 4 years has pasted by so fast... i was warned about this before hand though. it doesn't help that the person who had told me that was right... I had wanted to do so many things with my college life, but I had never been able to. It is fine though, I have my whole life to make kids lives better with just being their teacher, which is better than anything ever.
this the time class of 2015 to enter into the world, and good luck to everyone in the future.
WE DID IT =D
till next time
Surgeries
I have had over 60 + surgeries in my 22 years of life.
i know, seems a lot right? let me break it down. well first... let me explain what peters is
straight Peter's Anomaly is when a baby is born with the iris and cornea are fused together.
the eyes can vary, from mild, to sever. (Just like everything else). not one Peter's kid/adult is the same, i like to say that anyone with Peter's is like a snowflake, because everyone is beautiful in their own way.
Younger Years
i had an experimental surgery at the time on both of my eyes. this was when i was 2 years old. what was done was that they had pealed my iris and cornea away from each other. it worked in my left eye, and not so well in my right. My right eye then became very opaque, and was a light blue, but it was still a healthy eye with scar tissue over it from the surgery.
Middle School/High school (June 21st, 2004 -- 2009)
in between my 6th and 7th grade summer i had gotten my first eye surgery in a while. it was a cornea transplant, and a shunt implant. The shunt implant was added 2 months before the surgery date. the story behind that was that i had gone with my sister to her glaucoma specialist appointment, and had gotten into the observation chair. little did i know that the little pen (tono Pen) would read my pressure in my eye as being higher than what it is supposed to be. the Doctor had wanted to go in while i was getting my cornea transplant to put in the shunt to properly drain the fluid, to get a normal pressure. since he had wanted to go into surgery right away, the doctor did not treat me with drops first, like he was supposed to do. when i had gotten my first surgery, the weird thing that i can remember is that i could not open my other eye (the "good" eye that did not get any surgery), i remember trying to eat my breakfast, and i could not see anything. my first surgery was just the start of a long road of surgeries. Just to let you know, I did not have glaucoma, while my cornea specialist had gone in and preformed a 5 and a half hour long surgery to clean up everything (remove shunt, remove gas bubble and everything else) the doctor had verbally told my parents that he had a one up on the glaucoma specialist, and said that i do not have glaucoma at all. because of this, my eye did not like the shunt, so it got itself exposed, and the doctor had moved it all over my eye before actually taking it out, this was going in and out of surgery about 6 to 8 times each surgery was about 2 weeks from each other. this had all happened within the summer time period. than when it in the "right" spot, it had drained to much, and had caused my retina to detach, cornea to fail, and my eye became shrunken. i have had 4 detached retinas, I'm on my 4th right now. i had had 4 cornea transplants, the last one had failed, and nothing can be done to make it healthy eye. it is a very unhealthy eye, and the only thing that can be done right now is remove my eye.. which is not happening.
The After Effects
my eye is shrunken and is now much more of a physical handicap. (I hate using that word...) it does not hold me back from most things. it is an unhealthy eye, and now i am thinking about getting a scalaral shell to put over my very sick eye. this all could have been prevented by just someone saying it was not a good idea, but who knoew what would have happened. I did not know I would end up like this in the end. if anything, this had made me a lot stronger.
i know, seems a lot right? let me break it down. well first... let me explain what peters is
straight Peter's Anomaly is when a baby is born with the iris and cornea are fused together.
the eyes can vary, from mild, to sever. (Just like everything else). not one Peter's kid/adult is the same, i like to say that anyone with Peter's is like a snowflake, because everyone is beautiful in their own way.
Younger Years
i had an experimental surgery at the time on both of my eyes. this was when i was 2 years old. what was done was that they had pealed my iris and cornea away from each other. it worked in my left eye, and not so well in my right. My right eye then became very opaque, and was a light blue, but it was still a healthy eye with scar tissue over it from the surgery.
Middle School/High school (June 21st, 2004 -- 2009)
in between my 6th and 7th grade summer i had gotten my first eye surgery in a while. it was a cornea transplant, and a shunt implant. The shunt implant was added 2 months before the surgery date. the story behind that was that i had gone with my sister to her glaucoma specialist appointment, and had gotten into the observation chair. little did i know that the little pen (tono Pen) would read my pressure in my eye as being higher than what it is supposed to be. the Doctor had wanted to go in while i was getting my cornea transplant to put in the shunt to properly drain the fluid, to get a normal pressure. since he had wanted to go into surgery right away, the doctor did not treat me with drops first, like he was supposed to do. when i had gotten my first surgery, the weird thing that i can remember is that i could not open my other eye (the "good" eye that did not get any surgery), i remember trying to eat my breakfast, and i could not see anything. my first surgery was just the start of a long road of surgeries. Just to let you know, I did not have glaucoma, while my cornea specialist had gone in and preformed a 5 and a half hour long surgery to clean up everything (remove shunt, remove gas bubble and everything else) the doctor had verbally told my parents that he had a one up on the glaucoma specialist, and said that i do not have glaucoma at all. because of this, my eye did not like the shunt, so it got itself exposed, and the doctor had moved it all over my eye before actually taking it out, this was going in and out of surgery about 6 to 8 times each surgery was about 2 weeks from each other. this had all happened within the summer time period. than when it in the "right" spot, it had drained to much, and had caused my retina to detach, cornea to fail, and my eye became shrunken. i have had 4 detached retinas, I'm on my 4th right now. i had had 4 cornea transplants, the last one had failed, and nothing can be done to make it healthy eye. it is a very unhealthy eye, and the only thing that can be done right now is remove my eye.. which is not happening.
The After Effects
my eye is shrunken and is now much more of a physical handicap. (I hate using that word...) it does not hold me back from most things. it is an unhealthy eye, and now i am thinking about getting a scalaral shell to put over my very sick eye. this all could have been prevented by just someone saying it was not a good idea, but who knoew what would have happened. I did not know I would end up like this in the end. if anything, this had made me a lot stronger.
although, my eyes are physical, going through all those surgeries as a young girl has made me more protective of my own feelings and be more on guard of things that might hurt me. I do get anxiety, whenever I feel like I can't control it though, I meditate. it helps me calm down. I do get treated like a little girl sometimes, and it bothers me. sometimes I cannot control it, others? I am vocal about being hurt, and that is what has made me, being vocal, speaking up. being my own advocate in college has gotten me to graduation. this is a skill that someone has to learn, it does not just happen. in high school I wasn't as vocal as I am now, and I notice the change from then till now.
Till next time
Till next time
Life With a Label
Life With a Label
Yes, i am disabled, Handicapped, what have you, when i was a little girl, I always had gotten stares from both kids my age, and younger and also adults... I am normal, or "Average" i can do everything that an average person can do, maybe even better. people seem to underestimate my abilities, because of my eye being "different". I think I am Unique, if you have something different about you, Own it, because nobody is like you. even though society wants you to conform, and be "Average" or "Normal", just be you. I break those social norms whenever i walk out of my house, and i am not afraid of leaving my house to go to the store or anything. My eyes have held my back from a few things, simply because people could not look past them. i was a Cheerleader in middle school, and i was going to make it to the competition squad, but i never had because the coach did not want to be liable if anything happened to me. while in her care, a few girls who were spotting a stunt had dropped a girl, (dropped the flyer) this, in cheer lingo, is bad news. why did she say that, if a girl was dropped and broke her arm while she was watching the stunt fall apart in front her eyes? she was afraid. that is all that was.
Living life with a physical condition is kind of hard because i do get stares, and some are the curious looks and glances, and some are those ignorant stares. i can handle the looks and glances, not the stares. i had even gotten a few questions from those who had talked to me a few times, before getting to know me a little before asking the "forbidden" question.... "What happened to your eye?" if they are younger i tend to respond with the "I was born this way" if they are older, i tend to explain it a little more if they let me. I don't min answering questions, it just I always get the same question, and it always comes across as awkward. if you have a question, about anything, be confident that you are asking the question to get information back, not to have a hidden meaning behind it.
the ONLY thing I cannot do, is drive. I can do everything else, I can type this blog, i can read, I can text using a cell phone, I can do EVERYTHING else BUT drive. i had to add this, because i normally get the worst trolls out there who say "How can you type this, if you are blind?' I am Legally Blind, meaning, i can see, but i can't it is like trying to explain to someone i can walk, but I can't, people tend not to believe me, because of this fact that is very hard to describe to someone when they hear "Blind" they automatically think "Oh she can't see at all", when they don't take the time to listen to the "Legally" in frint of the "b" word.
I have to rely on friends, or family to take me places. this is hard to do because i have to work around their schedules. and most times, the people who taking my places don't want to, or don't think that they have time for it, or something like that. In the end, i get what i need to do, done. sometimes i just need to jump through hoops to go somewhere.it has just been a way of life for me. As a kid, I didn't think too much about it, But now I just want independence and i would love to drive, but I cannot. so that is not an option right now. it's fine though, I don't mind, I just have my privet Chauffeurs for the day haha.
I still get stares, and looks and glances. I just don't notice that often though. I just accepted it, I know, sounds weird but i had. I don't notice hardly at all. I do notice the stares though. and the stares get annoying. I can only smile at them, or wave, or say something that would sound rude regardless of however it was said. i normally just smile at those people who stare.
I have trouble seeing in the dark, or very dim lighting. i always hold on to the railings if they are there, if not, then i just take my time. whenever it's dark out and i walk back from class, i normally call my boyfriend to not walk back to my house alone, and to have someone with me that is not my parents. it has gotten to the point to where he just knows i am going to call at a certain time, and he is always free during that time, just to make sure i get back safe.
Any questions about this post, ask them below
Till next time
Yes, i am disabled, Handicapped, what have you, when i was a little girl, I always had gotten stares from both kids my age, and younger and also adults... I am normal, or "Average" i can do everything that an average person can do, maybe even better. people seem to underestimate my abilities, because of my eye being "different". I think I am Unique, if you have something different about you, Own it, because nobody is like you. even though society wants you to conform, and be "Average" or "Normal", just be you. I break those social norms whenever i walk out of my house, and i am not afraid of leaving my house to go to the store or anything. My eyes have held my back from a few things, simply because people could not look past them. i was a Cheerleader in middle school, and i was going to make it to the competition squad, but i never had because the coach did not want to be liable if anything happened to me. while in her care, a few girls who were spotting a stunt had dropped a girl, (dropped the flyer) this, in cheer lingo, is bad news. why did she say that, if a girl was dropped and broke her arm while she was watching the stunt fall apart in front her eyes? she was afraid. that is all that was.
Living life with a physical condition is kind of hard because i do get stares, and some are the curious looks and glances, and some are those ignorant stares. i can handle the looks and glances, not the stares. i had even gotten a few questions from those who had talked to me a few times, before getting to know me a little before asking the "forbidden" question.... "What happened to your eye?" if they are younger i tend to respond with the "I was born this way" if they are older, i tend to explain it a little more if they let me. I don't min answering questions, it just I always get the same question, and it always comes across as awkward. if you have a question, about anything, be confident that you are asking the question to get information back, not to have a hidden meaning behind it.
the ONLY thing I cannot do, is drive. I can do everything else, I can type this blog, i can read, I can text using a cell phone, I can do EVERYTHING else BUT drive. i had to add this, because i normally get the worst trolls out there who say "How can you type this, if you are blind?' I am Legally Blind, meaning, i can see, but i can't it is like trying to explain to someone i can walk, but I can't, people tend not to believe me, because of this fact that is very hard to describe to someone when they hear "Blind" they automatically think "Oh she can't see at all", when they don't take the time to listen to the "Legally" in frint of the "b" word.
I have to rely on friends, or family to take me places. this is hard to do because i have to work around their schedules. and most times, the people who taking my places don't want to, or don't think that they have time for it, or something like that. In the end, i get what i need to do, done. sometimes i just need to jump through hoops to go somewhere.it has just been a way of life for me. As a kid, I didn't think too much about it, But now I just want independence and i would love to drive, but I cannot. so that is not an option right now. it's fine though, I don't mind, I just have my privet Chauffeurs for the day haha.
I still get stares, and looks and glances. I just don't notice that often though. I just accepted it, I know, sounds weird but i had. I don't notice hardly at all. I do notice the stares though. and the stares get annoying. I can only smile at them, or wave, or say something that would sound rude regardless of however it was said. i normally just smile at those people who stare.
I have trouble seeing in the dark, or very dim lighting. i always hold on to the railings if they are there, if not, then i just take my time. whenever it's dark out and i walk back from class, i normally call my boyfriend to not walk back to my house alone, and to have someone with me that is not my parents. it has gotten to the point to where he just knows i am going to call at a certain time, and he is always free during that time, just to make sure i get back safe.
Any questions about this post, ask them below
Till next time
Friday, May 15, 2015
College
College
For me, College was a definite life choice, I forced myself to get "Ok" grades in high school, at least good enough to get into a good college. when i had entered into my college for undergrad, i had no clue my plans for after i graduated. a;; i wanted to do at the time was get good grades for the time being because i really had no clue what this thing called "college" had in store for me till i fully entered into it through an LLC my freshman year. this had kind of got me involved within the college more, but i had trouble making friends still. i had an alright friend back home in my hometown, the type of friend that only liked to talk about gossip, and to spread rumors, and to pick on you.... nobody that was just there for you when you absolutely needed them. I knew i had to make new friends soon, and fast. and the LLC had helped me with that. these were a group of people who i had bounded with over that scary freshman year. i have life long friends now that I still have as I getting ready to graduate. Anyway, with making friends, I had people in my life that did not makie my time at college easy, this included my first and only roommate, and my ex.
My old roommate was the worst person i could have ever been paired with for my first year away from my parents, I mean it was fine for the first month of school, than things started to get really screwy, when we had done our "roommate agreement" and the topic of "religion" came up, she started going off about who Jesus saved her, and that she loved God, now... i don't mind different religions at all, it's just when someone shoves down someone's throat i have a real problem with. That is just what she had done, she had tried to shove her god lovingness down my throat. that was strike one. Strike two, she would come in around 2 in the morning while I was sleeping and slam the door, I have no clue why she had done this all the time, but she had. Strike three was when she had came into the room, yelling at me for telling my parents what was going on in college, when i felt a need to tell them what was going on since they were paying for my 4 years. she had come into the room, yelling at me while my dad was on the phone. he had heard everything while I was doing my math homework, i had ignored her, than when she started getting so angery at me, she seemed like she was going to hurt me (punch me) i had grabbed her to stop her from hurting me, than she had run to tell the RA, that was the night I was scared of getting kicked off campus, for good. long story short? she is no longer at my college, she had dropped out, and I had come out on top of all the crappy things that had happened in my freshman year.
My second year, I was trying to get more involved so i had joined the choir on campus. I had been singing for over 16 years, so I thought, why not. I had made a lot of long lasting friendships during this time, and friends that i would soon let go, which everyone has to go through as they grow up. this is when I had met my current boyfriend (June of the summer in between the two years) had given me the freedom to be me, and that is all I ever wanted to be, is just me. i had explored more things this year, such as learn more about meditation. and that it now my "Go to" as when I get stressed and get anxious.i had also gotten alright grades, but this is when i realized what each professor wanted in each class, and who to talk to if I wanted to get something done the right way. this is the year that everything just get a little easier to do within the campus community.
My Junior year, (third year) was my "hardest" year academically. i had taken my Capstone class, with this i had to write a long paper, i had done my paper on Anne Frank, and her Legacey. this was something that i was very proud of, and i loved writing this paper. I ended up being 22 pages long. I also had to perticapate in the Symposium. this included completing a poster, and presenting it in front of the department of which you were majoring in. I had to present in front of the History and Political Science Department. it ended up being a very fun day and a day that I was very proud of myself for actually presenting on something that i had done all semester. I ended up with a B+ in the class. not bad if I say so myself, haha.
My senior year, (fourth year) this year had to be one of my favorite year of all my four years at college. i had made friends my freshman year, and these friends would do anything for me within reason, and they actually liked my company. this year i also had to let some of my friends go, this is because i had heard a girl in my circle of friends say something about me, she said that i yelled at her, and that i slammed the door in her face, this was not true at all, if you me in person, you know I would never do this. anyway, since she had said that, i had brought it to her attention that i had heard from someone else that she had said that about me. and she was saying to the circle of friends that i hated her, and this and that, and I knew that she just wanted attention so i had to cut her and her "band of mary men" out of my life, so i had just stopped talking to her, and i had gotten rid of her off of Facebook, and just stopped talking to her and surrounded myself with people that actually enjoyed my company, and who would not go around me to talk about me to others to see what they would say. I had stayed by myself for the most part, i had worked on me, and just stayed out of everyone's way. by the end of this year, I had rekindled some friendships that were there since freshman year. I had always had these friends, but I had hung out with these people more often, and it helped a lot. this is the year that i had begun to get extremely involved with college, i had held 2 executive board positions, and been apart of 5 clubs on campus that i would not change for anything in the world. I am now Leadership Certified, and had been a participant in the pageant on campus which was so fun, i had made the hosts (MC's) very impressed by singing "Over the Moon" from Rent the musical. they were blown away, and so were my friends who were in the audience. I was proud of myself, but i did not win, which is fine, i can't always win, nor do I win at anything haha. This year had been my favorite year because i had learned a lot about myself, as well as others.
What is next for me...
I am off to grad school to get my teaching certification. and I hope to be student teaching in the spring of next year. it has taken me a long time to get where i need to be, but everything is worth it in the long haul. Never give up, and keep dreaming big, one day you will get to where you need to be and look back and just smile at everything that had made you the person you are now.
Till next time
For me, College was a definite life choice, I forced myself to get "Ok" grades in high school, at least good enough to get into a good college. when i had entered into my college for undergrad, i had no clue my plans for after i graduated. a;; i wanted to do at the time was get good grades for the time being because i really had no clue what this thing called "college" had in store for me till i fully entered into it through an LLC my freshman year. this had kind of got me involved within the college more, but i had trouble making friends still. i had an alright friend back home in my hometown, the type of friend that only liked to talk about gossip, and to spread rumors, and to pick on you.... nobody that was just there for you when you absolutely needed them. I knew i had to make new friends soon, and fast. and the LLC had helped me with that. these were a group of people who i had bounded with over that scary freshman year. i have life long friends now that I still have as I getting ready to graduate. Anyway, with making friends, I had people in my life that did not makie my time at college easy, this included my first and only roommate, and my ex.
My old roommate was the worst person i could have ever been paired with for my first year away from my parents, I mean it was fine for the first month of school, than things started to get really screwy, when we had done our "roommate agreement" and the topic of "religion" came up, she started going off about who Jesus saved her, and that she loved God, now... i don't mind different religions at all, it's just when someone shoves down someone's throat i have a real problem with. That is just what she had done, she had tried to shove her god lovingness down my throat. that was strike one. Strike two, she would come in around 2 in the morning while I was sleeping and slam the door, I have no clue why she had done this all the time, but she had. Strike three was when she had came into the room, yelling at me for telling my parents what was going on in college, when i felt a need to tell them what was going on since they were paying for my 4 years. she had come into the room, yelling at me while my dad was on the phone. he had heard everything while I was doing my math homework, i had ignored her, than when she started getting so angery at me, she seemed like she was going to hurt me (punch me) i had grabbed her to stop her from hurting me, than she had run to tell the RA, that was the night I was scared of getting kicked off campus, for good. long story short? she is no longer at my college, she had dropped out, and I had come out on top of all the crappy things that had happened in my freshman year.
My second year, I was trying to get more involved so i had joined the choir on campus. I had been singing for over 16 years, so I thought, why not. I had made a lot of long lasting friendships during this time, and friends that i would soon let go, which everyone has to go through as they grow up. this is when I had met my current boyfriend (June of the summer in between the two years) had given me the freedom to be me, and that is all I ever wanted to be, is just me. i had explored more things this year, such as learn more about meditation. and that it now my "Go to" as when I get stressed and get anxious.i had also gotten alright grades, but this is when i realized what each professor wanted in each class, and who to talk to if I wanted to get something done the right way. this is the year that everything just get a little easier to do within the campus community.
My Junior year, (third year) was my "hardest" year academically. i had taken my Capstone class, with this i had to write a long paper, i had done my paper on Anne Frank, and her Legacey. this was something that i was very proud of, and i loved writing this paper. I ended up being 22 pages long. I also had to perticapate in the Symposium. this included completing a poster, and presenting it in front of the department of which you were majoring in. I had to present in front of the History and Political Science Department. it ended up being a very fun day and a day that I was very proud of myself for actually presenting on something that i had done all semester. I ended up with a B+ in the class. not bad if I say so myself, haha.
My senior year, (fourth year) this year had to be one of my favorite year of all my four years at college. i had made friends my freshman year, and these friends would do anything for me within reason, and they actually liked my company. this year i also had to let some of my friends go, this is because i had heard a girl in my circle of friends say something about me, she said that i yelled at her, and that i slammed the door in her face, this was not true at all, if you me in person, you know I would never do this. anyway, since she had said that, i had brought it to her attention that i had heard from someone else that she had said that about me. and she was saying to the circle of friends that i hated her, and this and that, and I knew that she just wanted attention so i had to cut her and her "band of mary men" out of my life, so i had just stopped talking to her, and i had gotten rid of her off of Facebook, and just stopped talking to her and surrounded myself with people that actually enjoyed my company, and who would not go around me to talk about me to others to see what they would say. I had stayed by myself for the most part, i had worked on me, and just stayed out of everyone's way. by the end of this year, I had rekindled some friendships that were there since freshman year. I had always had these friends, but I had hung out with these people more often, and it helped a lot. this is the year that i had begun to get extremely involved with college, i had held 2 executive board positions, and been apart of 5 clubs on campus that i would not change for anything in the world. I am now Leadership Certified, and had been a participant in the pageant on campus which was so fun, i had made the hosts (MC's) very impressed by singing "Over the Moon" from Rent the musical. they were blown away, and so were my friends who were in the audience. I was proud of myself, but i did not win, which is fine, i can't always win, nor do I win at anything haha. This year had been my favorite year because i had learned a lot about myself, as well as others.
What is next for me...
I am off to grad school to get my teaching certification. and I hope to be student teaching in the spring of next year. it has taken me a long time to get where i need to be, but everything is worth it in the long haul. Never give up, and keep dreaming big, one day you will get to where you need to be and look back and just smile at everything that had made you the person you are now.
Till next time
Thursday, May 14, 2015
Relationships
Relationship,
they have been very tough for me, I have had crushes in high school, and middle school... but nobody paid me any attention because of my eyes, so I had to revert to the good old internet for finding love, it had worked for a good portion of the time, and I had found a lot of life long friends on the internet. (which was what I wanted to do anyway), anywho... I had found a lot of jerks, and met a lot of pervs, but two relationships stand out in my head that I had met online.
my ex was one of them, he ended up to scum, (no lie, I have a friend who had told me that he dated a 13 year old after he left me... he was 22). He had done a lot of messed up things to me, that i will talk about in later blogs.
my current boyfriend, now here is a fairytale come true.
this boy is the love of my life, I have been with him for almost 3 years (June 18th will be 3 years) I had met him online, i had also met him in real life, so I know he didn't catfish me, haha. he takes care of me, he is super patient with my needs. and to be with, you gotta have the patience of a saint, no lie. anyway, he is very supportive of my studies, and me going right back to school to get my teaching certification, this is right after i graduate undergrad, NBD though =) I think he is the "One".
Till next time,
they have been very tough for me, I have had crushes in high school, and middle school... but nobody paid me any attention because of my eyes, so I had to revert to the good old internet for finding love, it had worked for a good portion of the time, and I had found a lot of life long friends on the internet. (which was what I wanted to do anyway), anywho... I had found a lot of jerks, and met a lot of pervs, but two relationships stand out in my head that I had met online.
my ex was one of them, he ended up to scum, (no lie, I have a friend who had told me that he dated a 13 year old after he left me... he was 22). He had done a lot of messed up things to me, that i will talk about in later blogs.
my current boyfriend, now here is a fairytale come true.
this boy is the love of my life, I have been with him for almost 3 years (June 18th will be 3 years) I had met him online, i had also met him in real life, so I know he didn't catfish me, haha. he takes care of me, he is super patient with my needs. and to be with, you gotta have the patience of a saint, no lie. anyway, he is very supportive of my studies, and me going right back to school to get my teaching certification, this is right after i graduate undergrad, NBD though =) I think he is the "One".
Till next time,
Hi Guys
Hi Guys
i am just a normal girl, who is graduating college (university) in a week, but the unique thing about me, is that i have a vision problem. it is quite rare actually. it is called "Peters Anomaly" and is diagnosed at birth. i have had 60+ surgeries in my 22 years on this earth. I have chosen to write a blog about my life with this visual disorder, because i feel like it is very unique, and i have always wanted my story to be "out there".
I have a sister and a brother, my sister is 30, and my brother is 27. my sister has the same condition as me, but she has i worse than me, plus she is a doctor. I look up to her as my role model.
here is where I will talk about my life, as well as the changes that happen within it.
as of late, I have been enrolled in Graduate School for teaching. i have been studying History for the past 4 years, and loved it, and I have always wanted to become a teacher, so I figured why not be a teacher of History, and if that doesn't work out, I will go back to school for Special Education. I am the person who always has to have her plan figured out before I do anything big within my life.
any initial question feel free to ask below =)
Till next time,
i am just a normal girl, who is graduating college (university) in a week, but the unique thing about me, is that i have a vision problem. it is quite rare actually. it is called "Peters Anomaly" and is diagnosed at birth. i have had 60+ surgeries in my 22 years on this earth. I have chosen to write a blog about my life with this visual disorder, because i feel like it is very unique, and i have always wanted my story to be "out there".
I have a sister and a brother, my sister is 30, and my brother is 27. my sister has the same condition as me, but she has i worse than me, plus she is a doctor. I look up to her as my role model.
here is where I will talk about my life, as well as the changes that happen within it.
as of late, I have been enrolled in Graduate School for teaching. i have been studying History for the past 4 years, and loved it, and I have always wanted to become a teacher, so I figured why not be a teacher of History, and if that doesn't work out, I will go back to school for Special Education. I am the person who always has to have her plan figured out before I do anything big within my life.
any initial question feel free to ask below =)
Till next time,
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