College

 College

For me, College was a definite life choice, I forced myself to get "Ok" grades in high school, at least good enough to get into a good college. when i had entered into my college for undergrad, i had no clue my plans for after i graduated. a;; i wanted to do at the time was get good grades for the time being because i really had no clue what this thing called "college" had in store for me till i fully entered into it through an LLC my freshman year. this had kind of got me involved within the college more, but i had trouble making friends still. i had an alright friend back home in my hometown, the type of friend that only liked to talk about gossip, and to spread rumors, and to pick on you.... nobody that was just there for you when you absolutely needed them. I knew i had to make new friends soon, and fast. and the LLC had helped me with that. these were a group of people who i had bounded with over that scary freshman year. i have life long friends now that I still have as I getting ready to graduate. Anyway, with making friends, I had people in my life that did not makie my time at college easy, this included my first and only roommate, and my ex.

My old roommate was the worst person i could have ever been paired with for my first year away from my parents, I mean it was fine for the first month of school, than things started to get really screwy, when we had done our "roommate agreement" and the topic of "religion" came up, she started going off about who Jesus saved her, and that she loved God, now... i don't mind different religions at all, it's just when someone shoves down someone's throat i have a real problem with. That is just what she had done, she had tried to shove her god lovingness down my throat. that was strike one. Strike two, she would come in around 2 in the morning while I was sleeping and slam the door, I have no clue why she had done this all the time, but she had. Strike three was when she had came into the room, yelling at me for telling my parents what was going on in college, when i felt a need to tell them what was going on since they were paying for my 4 years. she had come into the room, yelling at me while my dad was on the phone. he had heard everything while I was doing my math homework, i had ignored her, than when she started getting so angery at me, she seemed like she was going to hurt me (punch me) i had grabbed her to stop her from hurting me, than she had run to tell the RA, that was the night I was scared of getting kicked off campus, for good. long story short? she is no longer at my college, she had dropped out, and I had come out on top of all the crappy things that had happened in my freshman year.

My second year, I was trying to get more involved so i had joined the choir on campus. I had been singing for over 16 years, so I thought, why not. I had made a lot of long lasting friendships during this time, and friends that i would soon let go, which everyone has to go through as they grow up. this is when I had met my current boyfriend (June of the summer in between the two years) had given me the freedom to be me, and that is all I ever wanted to be, is just me. i had explored more things this year, such as learn more about meditation. and that it now my "Go to" as when I get stressed and get anxious.i had also gotten alright grades, but this is when i realized what each professor wanted in each class, and who to talk to if I wanted to get something done the right way. this is the year that everything just get a little easier to do within the campus community.

My Junior year, (third year) was my "hardest" year academically. i had taken my Capstone class, with this i had to write a long paper, i had done my paper on Anne Frank, and her Legacey. this was something that i was very proud of, and i loved writing this paper. I ended up being 22 pages long. I also had to perticapate in the Symposium. this included completing a poster, and presenting it in front of the department of which you were majoring in. I had to present in front of the History and Political Science Department. it ended up being a very fun day and a day that I was very proud of myself for actually presenting on something that i had done all semester. I ended up with a B+ in the class. not bad if I say so myself, haha.

My senior year, (fourth year) this year had to be one of my favorite year of all my four years at college. i had made friends my freshman year, and these friends would do anything for me within reason, and they actually liked my company. this year i also had to let some of my friends go, this is because i had heard a girl in my circle of friends say something about me, she said that i yelled at her, and that i slammed the door in her face, this was not true at all, if you me in person, you know I would never do this. anyway, since she had said that, i had brought it to her attention that i had heard from someone else that she had said that about me. and she was saying to the circle of friends that i hated her, and this and that, and I knew that she just wanted attention so i had to cut her and her "band of mary men" out of my life, so i had just stopped talking to her, and i had gotten rid of her off of Facebook, and just stopped talking to her and surrounded myself with people that actually enjoyed my company, and who would not go around me to talk about me to others to see what they would say. I had stayed by myself for the most part, i had worked on me, and just stayed out of everyone's way. by the end of this year, I had rekindled some friendships that were there since freshman year. I had always had these friends, but I had hung out with these people more often, and it helped a lot. this is the year that i had begun to get extremely involved with college, i had held 2 executive board positions, and been apart of 5 clubs on campus that i would not change for anything in the world. I am now Leadership Certified, and had been a participant in the pageant on campus which was so fun, i had made the hosts (MC's) very impressed by singing "Over the Moon" from Rent the musical. they were blown away, and so were my friends who were in the audience. I was proud of myself, but i did not win, which is fine, i can't always win, nor do I win at anything haha. This year had been my favorite year because i had learned a lot about myself, as well as others.

What is next for me...
I am off to grad school to get my teaching certification. and I hope to be student teaching in the spring of next year. it has taken me a long time to get where i need to be, but everything is worth it in the long haul. Never give up, and keep dreaming big, one day you will get to where you need to be and look back and just smile at everything that had made you the person you are now.

Till next time