Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Anxiety, How I Control/Handle it

I am no expert, nor did I study this in college, so do not quote me or anything, I am just sharing what helps for me.

What helps me, is to just to meditate.

what I do, is I lay down or sit down, whenever I have a few hour or so, I lay down or sit down, turn on a meditation app, or I go on YouTube for a guided meditation. I listen to it, and i actually just focus on my breathing. Breathinis key in any situation (Outside of meditation). anyway, this has helped me for years to control my anxiety, and my anxiety attacks, the thing is though, I know when it is time to mediate, because I will have just come out of an attack, or just calm enough to let everything go, sometimes I cannot let things go by myself. My boyfriend will literally tell me to go meditate, and I will say to him that I am not willing to at the time he suggests it. If someone is not willing to go into a meditative state, the relaxation will not work, or it will take a while for it to work, I have tried when I was not willing to let things yet. This is when I am in my room, by myself and I have the time to do this. When I am out and about, I do not just listen to a guided medatition, or anything of what I had said above. I either step outside for a bit, walking away from a situation for a little to regather thoughts, than to revisit the situation at a later time with a clear head is a good way to control stress. In my mind. Or I just sit there, and focus on my breathing.

Do I Have Triggers?

Yes, I do, some are situational based, and some are just memories that trigger things.

Situational based?

there is a good story to this one. when I was with my ex, him and I were walking in a mall, and I had something that I thought was funny, and obviously he did not. so he walked really fast in front of me, leaving me by myself in a big mall. I started calling his cell phone, and no answer when I knew he had it on him. I had called my mom, just in case he really did leave me there on my own, if she would come and pick me up. I had eventually found him, to which he was laughing I.had been sitting down outside the store he had went into. He had come out, to see me sitting there, and he reprimanded me like I was a little girl, I was 18 years old at this point. After this, we had walked to his car, and had gotten in, I was extremely upset, and had gone into a panic attack, saying "Never again" I could not speak more than that. I had never felt anything like this before though, I felt like I was going to die. Obviously, he did not understand anything about what was happening, nor why I couldn't speak much more than what I had been. so he started yelling at me to speak to him, and to stop doing what I was doing. I eventually came out of it, and we were going to jersey to met his one friend, and he did not want his friend to see or hear anything about what had happened.

Other ways I am triggered?

Memories, like say if something happens that is similar to what happened in the past, and I had a bad experience with that situation. I could go into an anxiety attack.

Does this mean I cannot have a day where I don't have attacks?

these attack are rare. I don't have them often and I credit that to my meditation.


any other questions, ask them below in a comment

till next time

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